"The Day I Became One with God"

"For Where Your Treasure Is, There Will Your Heart Be Also."

Matthew 21:6

Like all journeys in our lives, there are some which are mundane and some which are very profound. While I believe that each experience whether mundane, profound, big or small does help to shape us, there are some which change our lives, our beliefs and perception altogether. I will share with you one such experience which is the pinnacle of my spiritual journey and a very mystical one. God granted me this grace.

One very clear and beautiful summer Sunday morning in June of 2008, I was doing my usual 'stuff,' which entailed having my 'must have' morning cup of coffee, listening to the radio and enjoying the very special Sunday morning music on the airwaves. In addition to planning my Jamaican Sunday dinner menu of rice and peas with coconut milk, roast pork, tossed salad and a sweet potato salad. I love to cook, so I was looking forward to that. When I happened to hear one of many of my favorite songs playing, and of course much to my sons chagrin, I started singing my heart out. I am not much of a singer, so this comes with a warning, get your earplugs!! I was in my bedroom at the time, so my poor neighbors. Being in a two level townhouse, I felt a little higher up!! Everyone will have to put up with me this morning, I thought!

I was at a crossroad in my life at the time, but I trusted God to help me get through it. Though honestly, sometimes I felt my faith was not strong enough, but I tried to remain constant in believing He would work this out for me. I read His Word every day.

God had other plans for my singing that morning. I really, really loved this song. It was a love song from back in the '80's, and being in love the song was very meaningful to me. You know how we 'girls' are. So feeling really great that morning made me sing with all my heart, but suddenly and I really mean suddenly! I felt 'strange,' now to be honest I felt so different, a completely different feeling came over me. It was a very powerful feeling. At first I was a little fearful! Until I realized this was of God! When God touches you, you KNOW....and how you know is; you get this feeling of pure joy, you feel a power so mighty. For example; this is perhaps the best way I can describe it... think of when you are deeply moved by something happening in your life, an event or a special moment, it is like that feeling.... multiplied by a hundred!! But then, I not only felt Him, He placed in my heart His promise and His will for the challenge I was facing. What a Great, Awesome God! God answered my prayer! He heard my cries!

I was moved to tears, I just started crying and fell on my knees before God, with praise and thankfulness, right there in my bedroom. His love filled me, I have never, ever felt or known any love like that. God was in total control, I felt so very filled with love!!!! God's Powerful, Awesome, Glorious Love!!! I thanked Him, and thanked Him. I had turned off the radio and started to pray, I was directed to read Psalm 68, and so I reached for my Bible and went back on my knees. I was not sure what God wanted me to do, but I could feel that this was something great. As I approached verse 30, I could feel the Holy Spirit more, I started crying more, and then verse 31-35 read:

Princes shall come out of Egypt; Ethiopia shall soon stretch out her hands unto God. Sing unto God, ye kingdoms of the earth; O sing praises unto the Lord; Selah: To him that rideth upon the heavens of heavens, which were of old; lo, he doth send out His Voice , and that a mighty Voice. Ascribe ye strength unto God: His excellency is over Israel, and His strength is in the CLOUDS. At that said moment I was overcome with His might, God was really speaking to me, He was directing me! Then I remembered and said unto Him, 'Yes Lord, from as far back as I can remember during my childhood, I always had dreams of You speaking with me from the clouds. I continued reading,

O God, thou art terrible out of thy holy places: the God of Israel is he that giveth strength and power unto His people. Blessed be God.

I never saw Him in those dreams. I only heard His voice. I may have been nine or ten years old at the time.

I sat on my bed for a few moments trying to understand the Lord's message, He wasn't finished with me yet as I then felt this powerful urge to look outside, not knowing what I was looking for...(am I going crazy, I thought) but no, I quickly pushed that thought away. 'Forgive me Lord,' I asked, 'You are showing me something, what could it be?' I looked through my bedroom window, the sky was a beautiful, beautiful blue and very clear, with just a few wisps of cloud in sight! Then I walked out of my bedroom, through the hallway and down the stairs, and looked through my front windows and BEHOLD, THERE WAS WHAT THE LORD WAS LEADING ME TO!!! In the sky, before me was a thick, white, fluffy cloud; the best description being a stratocumulus cloud in the shape of GOD!! As I looked at the Cloud I knew this was of God. There was His Head which was turned to the side, His arms outstretched. This pure, lily white Cloud, so bright. I looked on in Awe, and for a few seconds in disbelief. I thought my eyes were fooling me; then I heard God's voice. He said, 'It is Me, my dear Natalie, I have shown Myself to you because you are pure in heart,' I said, 'Me Lord!' He answered, 'Yes my child, you are pure in heart. You have been very faithful, steadfast in faith, in all your adversities you have never let go of me, you held on even more to me. You love those who have wronged you, still kind to them, you are always full of love and so forgiving. All will be yours. Remember, they will look in your eyes and see Me, they will not be sure what it is at first, but soon after they will know. You will speak and they will hear Me, you will touch them and they will feel Me, they will see the love which surrounds you and obey Me.'

'They will feel my love through you. I have chosen you Natalie to touch their souls, I will lead you and guide you. So fear not, my child.' I stood there awhile, not moving, just listening to His voice and looking on at that Cloud. Suddenly I realized I wanted my sons to witness this profound moment, so I called out to them to come quickly, and as they came to look; we saw the Head dissipate before our eyes with the body-arms remaining and dissipating last.

Then God explained, 'He cannot show Himself to everyone, this was only for you to see.'
I understood.

I shared with my sons, what had occurred, they were in Awe, they shook their head saying, 'Mom, you are truly blessed.' I could see they were deeply moved, they left me to go and pray. I sat in meditation for awhile reflecting on God's revelation to me. I was not the same, I had Become One with God, He had touched my soul and my heart. He was now working through me; To Him be all the Glory! I experienced great humility, I was so humbled by this. I reflected on what he had placed in my heart, I reflected on what he had told me about being surrounded by love. Then I remembered, a few years ago, my brother-in-law's sister had a similar experience. She wrote a book based on that experience, as she practised channeling. I was greatly appreciative of receiving a copy of her book which titled ''It Has Always Been Thus."

This too was an enlightening moment for me, as I walked toward her to receive my autographed copy. She looked at me in a strange way, I thought perhaps I was disturbing her. So I said, 'I am so sorry, I will come back later,' and she answered, 'No, you are not disturbing me at all,' and continued looking at me in a dreamlike way. She then autographed the book and handed it to me and smiled. I chose to read what she had written, and then I understood why she looked at me the way she did. In it read, 'Continue walking in the light of love,' she answered before I could say anything, 'You are surrounded by a bright light of love, Natalie.' I was speechless.

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: Because greater is He that is In you, than He that is in the world. 1 John 4:4

It is with heartfelt love that I have written this for you, my friends. I hope that I have inspired you today. May God fill your lives with His Grace and His Love. May He touch your soul, God can touch us at anytime, be open to receive Him.

With God's Love, specially for you from my Heart,


“You need to keep on patiently doing God’s will if you want Him to do for you all that He has promised.”Hebrews 10:36